*breathes*

I feel like I've been holding in a breath since exams let out.
Heck maybe even since before exams.
Maybe since I discovered I got 16/30 in that assignment.


But now... FINALLY I can relax.
Well technically not yet... since I still have an RO for Comm Banking and Finance but it does not signify in the grand scheme of things as:


1. As long as I get a pass I will maintain my HD ave.
2. My 2009 ave will be D if I receive anywhere between a 50-90.
3. I am not about to go into a bank job next year, so my pride is somewhat intact.


But seriously, I was having flashes of 2006 when our ENTERs were coming out.
Not since then had my future been so reliant on exam results.
And I was getting worried since ENTER came out only a couple of days before I went overseas... coincidence?
But seriously as I scrolled down that page my first and only thought was "please God, don't let my heart break".

Coz we all know that's happened a couple of times these last few days.
*sniff* Brandy
*sniff* KAT-TUN

But now its time to really start getting things going.
I've got 2 more work days left... and I'm a bit sad though I didn't get much chance to dwell on it today coz it was SHOCKING at BigW.
I had to lug down 4 Christmas Trees down stairs!!
And why is it the were the biggest most humongous trees we had?!?!

But tomorrow as things die down a little, I'll be able to reflect.
No gardening though, it rained and I dont wanna garden when its soggy and all the crawlies are having fun slushing around.
Anyway the system has gone down so I wont be able to stalk that RO til it shows up, so I should probably go sleep.

Night!

Sashi Buri!

Wah!
It seems I haven't been here in a long time.
November usually does that too me.

Too many exams, and all the other stuff that comes along the way.
I've yet to see my FIRST day when I can just stay home and lounge... and I dont think it's going to happen at all... not for another week at least.

BIGGEST NEWS: Portugal qualified for World Cup 2010!!!
I am sOoOoO happy, the first thing I did when I woke up this morning was check the scores.
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.

Uwah!
Lol... I am up to my final exam!

It's been a long and winding journey...
but I'm finally here tonight,
picking up the pieces and looking back into the light...

*cough*
sorry, I got caught up with some Guy Sebastian.


But anyway... this final exam SHOULD be simple.
They gave us the exam questions.
But the fact is... it's LATERAL thinking.

I dont even KNOW what that means.
So I am considerably worried.
But this morning, I have prepped for one out of FIVE questions, rather 5/40 of the exam.
(The rest, I have been watching Cartoon KAT-TUN).

I suppose I will get the other two shorter questions done by this evening.
And then tomorrow not study at all.

I dont think there's a purpose for this entry.
Except that I am nearing the end of my VU journey (for now... I might come back as a lecturer eventually!)

Aja! I'll try my best!

Instead of cramming, I thought I'd make a list instead:

Ways Kei will survived 33 degree heat tomorrow when there are no aircons around:

1. Don't move.
2. Don't breathe.
3. Strip (unlikely)
4. Wear really really short shorts (likely)
5. Slip, Slop, Slap... what's the 4th one??
6. Stay in the car and keep aircon full blast.
7. Douse self with ice water (bad for my health?)
8. Think cold thoughts, Japan would be quite cool at this time of the year?
9. Focus on studying.
10. Nap (dangerous or I might die by a: melting b: eaten by bugs)

I've run out of things I could do.
What sucks is that I can't even go to school for a little while because I know I should be prepping my notes instead of driving to and from the exam venue.
And eating lunch.
Or junk food.

*shout out to my mahja who knew instinctively that nothing normal would be in my lunch box*

Anyway, better do my last bit of exam prep.
Camma good luck tomorrow I'll see you in the arvo... or was it a morning exam?
Anyway, I suspect I'll fnd you!

With two 3-hour exams on Monday...

I've been studying pretty hard (- time spent watching Yukan Club, Cartoon Kat-tun and other goodies) for the past 2 weeks...
So why do I still feel a sense of dread??

Probably because I'm afraid.
Of tax law.
Yep. I said it.
Whereas for Int'l Banking and Finance I can get 22 marks out of 100 wrong and still pull off a High Distinction...

I can only get 12 marks wrong out of 70, if I want to keep a Distinction.
And it really, really disturbs me.

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This morning, I took on the topic that caused me to get a 16/30 in my assignment.
I'd been putting it off because of my bad memories, but I couldn't leave it anymore.
Now I've decided to be all philosophical...


Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game
- Cinderella Story

and of course, there was a moral lesson in Samurai High School, as well as RESCUE.
Although I'm not sure how:

Don't die! Come back alive!
- RESCUE

is supposed to save me.
But at the moment I'll take inspiration from anywhere I can get.

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I guess it all comes down to faith.
I know my notes are awesome (40+ pages handwritten notes!)
I know that I know my stuff.
I just need to calm the *akfjlasd* down.

But I suppose what scares me the most is that after these exams, its all over.
I will have finished my course.
I will be on my way to my last holiday as an undergrad.
I will be a few months away from starting my first job in my career as an accountant.

I'm sure the excitement will come eventually.
But for now, I just hope to be able to use every moment from now until 9:30am to prepare for my two exams.

Day 2 of Studying

Due to unforseeable circumstances I arrive at school just before 11am.
I'm supposed to be here at 10.
But that's just between me and myself.

Luckily yesterday was a VERY productive day.
Not just in terms of studying, but also writing.
I finished my chapter for the M&B competition, and will now look to edit and write my synopsis.
Which is funny coz I haven't got a synopsis.

All I knew was: Stalker Girl. Hot Greek Guy. Ship. Sex.
Once the sex passed, I was sort of at a loss.
But *shrugs* at least I managed to pop out 5,000 words I'm content with.
Once I send this off, hopefully by tomorrow, I will concentrate on a Yukan fic I wanna write.

No Nano for me this year =(

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In other news, Army called me yesterday.
THREE months after I sent in my application.
We'll see how it goes.
Though I find it amusing that the two places people run away from the most (Army & Tax Office) seem to be my destiny.

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So now, I am off to the wonderful land of International Banking & Finance and Taxation Law.
I hope you're all enjoying this happily warm-beach-going day!

Uwah.
It's quite ironic really.

( Find out what! )+++

In other news.
It's my final day of university hopefully.
I say hopefully coz there's always that marginal chance I will combust and fail something *touch wood*.

But lets not get into that.
Instead its time to start going into the next gear... although it totally felt like I was in fifth gear already.
But there's gotta be a sixth somewhere?

It has almost come to fruition.
(Is that a word?)

Anyway...
Since finishing the assignment, a bunch of things still went wrong...

1. printing was MUITO expensivo.
2. printing was not as I'd envisioned, colour quality, shape.
3. found out i'd made a mistake.
4. I got told I had to do powerpoint slides for today rather than for Monday.
5. teammate woke up late so we couldn't hand in the assignment in class and had to wait for her.
6. had to guillotine the assignment 3 sheets at a time and re-bind.


This morning I sat outside in the quad, mocha in hand thinking...
"WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS??!"

However, I always took back the question because I know I probably did lots of shitty stuff.

I walk to class and see another group's assignment.
HECK, it was sexy.
I don't know about the content, but the printing looked spot on, they were using two sided paper, and it looked sleek.

I started to feel bad about our one.
Presentation wise at least...
And the teacher showed us another one from another class and that was pretty too (however when I saw it up close later on, I wasn't incredibly impressed anymore).

As a result, for the whole class, me and the 2 members that were there were contemplating the guillotine.
Finally though, we were let out an hour and a half early and so we decided to test run it.
We had 3 copies of the assignment.

It looked fair enough so we decided to do it for the whole thing.
HECK, I think it was the thing we did most as a team.
In the end it looked ALMOST as sexy as it does on Powerpoint.

Finally however, it was time to hand it in.
And...


It was worth it.

I didn't think he'd flip through it there and then... but he did.
And he would pick up on something good and say, "ooh, who wrote this?"
and I'd be like "I did."
And this happened a couple of times in a row and he's like "did you write everything?"
"No...." well, not everything. lol

But I'm hoping to get a good mark for this.

Of course there's still the presentation on Monday, which is 20% of the subject.
I want to find a way to include everyone without things going to pieces again.
Gambatte for one last assessment task!

This assignment is totally doing my head in.
TOTALLY.

And that is all.


Because if I talk about it more I'll get a headache.
Then I'll panic.
Then everything will go to pieces.

Hay nako.



On a happier note :D
I am off to watch some Yukan Club to brighten my spirits.
And some Nodame wont be unwelcome either!

Borrowed from cierra_james who stole it from someone. lol.
FU-UN

Lol, Yokoyama Yu owns the house where we live in.

Starting from the top:

Left to Right:
Ryo and Yokoyama's room, Yasu and Kame's bedroom; Kame's Sub Arena, Ukun and Bvo's bedroom; Sisbo and Ohkura's bedroom, and uneventfully the Toilet and the bathroom.

On the next level is Yasu's kitchen; Akanishi's bedroom, the fitting room and training room and Emma's workshop.

Next level:
Koyama's posture laboratory (eh?), the lavatory #1, Ukun's Fetishism Comic Show Room, Kei's bedroom, Koyama and Emi's bedroom :D, Nakamaru and Emma's bedroom, my Anteroom (?!?!) and then Yamapi's bedroom.

On the final-ish level:
Another lavatory, Akanishi's Love Scene Show Room; Nakamaru's Lumber Room, Yamapi's lounge, the kitchen and Yokoyama's school room (ooh kinky).

Somehow the entrance is in the MIDDLE of the square. I think we have to teleport in.

2 Assignments down.
1 to go.
1 test to go.

Is happy.

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But... this semester keeps busting my chops. lol.
What does that even mean??
I shall ponder it while playing Bejeweled Blitz on FB.

Lol.
My teacher... lets call him "A".
He teaches me for two subjects, my Wednesday night and my Thursday night.
He TOTALLY knows how to get me to pay attention.

Wednesday:
Kei is lagging.
A: "So... who likes football?"
Kei's head snaps up.
A (to me): "Yeah, Manchester United is at the top of the table right?"
Kei nods head enthusiastically.
Kei is awake.

Thursday:
Kei is lagging.
A: So... we go to Japan...
Kei's head snaps up.
Kei nods head enthusiastically.
Kei is awake.


But back to the point of this.
He comes up to me at the start of class and tells me I did well on the test.
Now I was assuming he was talking about Thursday's subject so I'm like... "not really..." (coz I got a standardised 8/10)
Then I realised he was talking about our Wednesday subject.
We dont have our results yet.
There's this big thing about it because some people were cheating and now everyone's in an uproar about cutting out the MCQ.

He said that mine was one of the top grades.
I asked if it was accidental that he saw it.
But he said they had to check the top marks for any "abnormalities".
Now at the same time I was happy to know I did well... but also in the back of my head I'm thinking, "was I just accused of cheating?"
Lol.

Good fun.


Shout out to Mr. A for letting us out 30 minutes early so I was able to watch 40 minutes of Glee!!
Yay Asian guy from the football team!!

When I see this, it makes me happy.



Matching friendship necklaces.
Yummy.

But I am happy that although U-kun isn't JE, he can still stay close to the other two.
My dearest wish  (aside from Saints winning a premiership) is that they would star in a drama together.
It's unlikely coz again, U-kun isn't JE... but then again, the two leads in Gokusen 3 were from different agencies so I live in hope.

On the other hand, I suppose I should just give up on ano baka leaving my life.
Those necklaces seem serious.

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Yukan Club is win.

Shout out to Emma for having it!
Shout out to Emi for finally getting it and sharing it!

I'm going to go do my law assignment.
But before that I want to vent.

Because I can.
Because I have to.
Because if I don't I'm going to end up putting my foot through a wall and hurting myself... but more importantly, my house (my family will not be pleased).


( Venting in Progress... )

There was a bit of a swap over from the members of my ship.
( just coz I can update... )

Today was one of those days...
I did lots of things but got nothing done.
I fear that nap times may have to be a thing of the past soon... not coz I'm going into the Army, but because I think sleeping is cutting into time I could use studying.
This sem is full-on killing me.

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Work said that they're cutting down to 11 zones again (it became 13 and that was how I got my shift, although technically I am zone 5. But zone 13 is an extension of 5).
But I'm thinking that this might be a sign to give up my shifts.
I will wait another couple of weeks until it becomes final... but I'd rather give up my shift rather than someone who really needs the money lose theirs.
Because truth be told, although I am not going to scoff at money, I'm probably not as desperate for it as some of the others.

But like I said... we'll see.

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I also bought a book I've been eye-ing off in the book department for awhile now... "How to Be Single", by the female half of the authors of "He's Just Not that Into You".
We shall see how it goes.
I don't really go much for chick-lit, because the trend is that there aren't happy endings... or the endings are "quirky happy" rather than "happily ever after"... but it just called to me.
Coz you know... I'm single. lol.

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I forgot Father's Day.
I didn't greet ANYONE.
I only realised it this afternoon.

Lol, so tonight I picked up a gift at work and drove to my Tito and Tita's house... lol.
Ah, my Tito is so appreciative of gifts.
It makes me feel happy.

*shut up Kei, you self important person*

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Food consumed today:

2 Tempura handrolls
1 California handroll
1 Tuna handroll
1 Gyoza
1 Lemon Green Tea
1 Glass Pepsi Max
1 Mini Magnum
1/2 Apple Muffin

why did I just tell you that?? I dunno.

I am loving having to learn SHINee's Replay dance.
Because it induces me to exercise after long months of doing nothing.
It almost makes me wanna go to the gym so that I can sneak into the dance room and practice in from of the mirror. lol.
*ooh there's an idea*

But I am getting a lot of it, but I won't lie and say there's a lot of crap still. haha.
Particularly when arms come into play.
Although it would be better if I could SEE myself doing this-- that way I would actually know if it was right.
Ooh that's right I was gonna go dance outside where I can see my reflection on the windows.

Downside?
The fact I started at 10:30pm last night... and before I knew it it was 12:30!!
I didn't actually sleep til 3 (though I gave up dancing by 1:30 when I realised I still had to get FX rates for my assign)... and all throughout the night I kept jolting awake coz I couldn't remember the next move to the dance.
HAHAHA.
THe song was on constant replay (pardon the pun) in my head.

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♥ Taemin
He is the 16 year old of SHINee and a fantastic dancer.
Even his bowl cut is growing on me. hahaha.
It must've been fate last Friday when I said I wanted a 16-yr old.
I had done research on SHINee earlier that day but I didn't really know who was who.
Anyway... I was watching slow-mo "Replay" and I'm envious of the way he hits hard every movement.

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Aside from that...
The past two days I've weirded myself out by ACTUALLY doing school work.
Not homework that needs to be checked.
Not assignments that need to be handed in within a week or so.
But work that I could put off another couple of weeks.
It puts me at ease having done this prep.

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Also work has started to mellow out a little.
Last night *shock horror* we actually got out on time.
How I thought I'd never see those days again.
And apparently recovery is looking really good so =] Kei!Happy.
*whoa* haven't used that expression in awhile.

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Lastly
You can bet your bottom dollar that I won't be getting any DL's from Emi until I put up all 3 remaining updates of For Love or Judo.

Lol I'll tell you now that the likelihood of an update this evening is about... 10%.
Sorry.
Yes I know...

"Instead of telling us of your dream that really means nothing to us, why don't you WRITE something!?!?"
But alas, writer's prerogative?

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( Chiaki-Sempai Dream #2 )

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Off to hw. Maybe.

Forgot it was a Superpost Saturday.
Was not reminded it was a Superpost Saturday.
Which probably means all of you guys are busy eh??

Which makes me feel better.
I only realised it now at 9:30pm, and since I usually start at 5pm to get 3 posts up by 10 pm there is no way...
But I should get the posts up within the next couple of days.
Either all tomorrow... or 1 each for the next couple of days.

Gomen!


I was wondering why my evening seemed a bit empty.

But at the same time I'm feeling a bit out of it.
So I'm going to do something particularly mindless.

Naught Kei-chan, being a bad girl again.
I suppose though I can easily blame Sisbo. lol.

Sisbo => Replay cover by Lisa => Original by SHINee => SHINee is hot while dancing (cant really see their faces) => shine are all between 16 and 19 years old. lol.

Or can I blame Kazama kun??
Because the SHINee MV, they're mostly wearing black and red-- and because I can't see their faces, one totally reminds me of Kazama. lol.

Or I could just take all the blame because lol...
It is probably no one else's fault but mine.
No one made me youtube them.
But the dancing's good.
I wanna learn it :D
But perhaps, better learn and make a piano version of the song first.
I was doing the intro last night and it was sounding good.

I tried to video me, hahaha... ultimate fail.
First time I did it, my head wasn't in the shot. hahaha
The second time wasn't too bad but RIGHT at the last bit, I went a bit off coz I forgot the direction.
Then the next couple of times I was sitting too far away from the words.
My final attempt ended with "SHEEEEEET" and then I went to bed. lol.

Anyway I'm off to enjoy the happiness of Taxation Law.